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How can I make my kids understand that less is more? I guess it has to start with me. I have to follow that myself. I dont need 8 pairs of jeans. I dont need the latest and greatest gadget. I dont need 10 bags of groceries a week, when our cabinet is already overflowing.

Less is more, and more is less. I will be full with less, and more will make me sick. Someday, someday, I will accomplish this.

Maybe someday I can apply this to my innerself as well. Speaking less is often more as well. Listening is better than speaking.

I just don't know anymore...there are so many songs that i cn relate too, but not perfectly..

im so confused, and i don't know how to get it out in words..i just need to get my anger out... compared to some my life is perfect,some mightsay..but try living a week in my shoes, the confusion is immense, i just don't know what i want anymore.

i just want someone who i can stop the world and melt with..i cant begin to explain.

Sometimes I wish I would just die. Seriously, there are so many different ways that I can kill myself and it won't even look like suicide. People would just think it was an accident. I've thought about it a lot...different ways...when I would do it...would I write a letter...would I call someone right before and tell them why...who would I tell... A few times I've had it all planned out. But, then someone would surprise me and temporarily make me forget my problems. The real problem is that my problems aren't the type that just go away. They are always there, I carry it with me everyday. Sometimes I can't figure out why I'm not already dead. By some standards I should be dead. It would make it so much easier. I sometimes feel like I'm carrying the weight of the world on my shoulders. I carry with me the fact that my father molested me for about 5 years and until about 2 months ago, I still lived in the same house as him. The fear that I felt everyday and every night, even after it had stop, was unbearable.. And still is... It has some type of hold on me and won't let go. I feel myself slipping deeper and deeper, until soon there won't be any deeper than a 6 foot grave.

Hero Heroine - Boys Like Girls

I never thought that you could break me apart
I keep a sinister smile and a hole in my heart
You want to get inside
Then you can get in line
But not this time
Cause you caught me off guard
Now I'm running and screaming
I feel like a hero and you are my heroine
I won't try to philosophize
I'll just take a deep breath and I'll look in your eyes
This is how I feel
And its so surreal
I got a closet filled up to the brim
With the ghosts of my past and their skeletons
And I don't know why
You'd even try
But I won't lie
And I feel a weakness coming on
Never felt so good to be so wrong
Had my heart on lock-down
And then you turned me around
And I'm feeling like a new born child
Every time I get a chance to see you smile
It's not complicated
I was so jaded

Bleeding Love - Leona Lewis

Closed off from love
I didn't need the pain
Once or twice was enough
And it was all in vain
Time starts to pass
Before you know it you're frozen
But something happened
For the very first time with you
My heart melts into the ground
Found something true
But I don't care what they say
I'm in love with you
My heart's crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I
Keep bleeding love